Casse-tête Chinois

I land, I run for the exit to avoid the hustle and bustle of the hustlers and “bustlers”, I get caught up in the jam, I scramble, I am out but not clear. I get into a taxi and I think to myself “That was exhausting, that was unfair, that was unnecessary”. As quick as those thoughts had arisen did they fall in surrender to the emergence of a mild, but existent, smile of content. My feet tingle and my soul vibrates, both overriding my mind and saying “You are here, and these are the lessons, quit being so defiant. Listen, learn and see, but most of all, don’t ignore your instincts”.

I am in an unfamiliar state of being, I am in an undesirable state of being. In my state of discomfort and confusion I try to observe and analyse the individual I have become, but all I get are feelings of haziness, impatience and frustration. Deep breaths… Inhale, exhale and cough, and that’s when I realize how the quality of my surroundings have begun to have an impact on me in such a short span of time. My inner-being whispers kindly and says “We need out, we need lush beautiful green surroundings, we need to reconnect. Take us to nature”.

I don’t worry about the feeling of discomfort that I am experiencing, I smile at it compassionately and learn to not judge it, because it too will pass. The transient state of equanimous flow has shied away and in its place the sensation of disconnectedness has taken over temporarily.

Excited, thrilled and pleased, I make my way through the alleyway and into the mountains. I am happy, I am transient, I am alive.

“You didn’t come into this world. You came out of it, like a wave from the ocean. You are not a stranger here.” – Alan Watts

16 thoughts on “Casse-tête Chinois

  1. To share your weaknesses is to make yourself vulnerable. To make yourself vulnerable is to show your STRENGTH! I’m so proud of you my friend! What an amazing way to build connection with your true self… I can’t wait to read your next post… I’m loving to be part of this amazing trip within!

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    1. Thanks so much Paula! I really appreciate you taking the time to read and write to me. Yes, I agree. I also find being vulnerable empowering, because it is one way for me to be true to myself, and the truth is powerful! I am grateful that you’re part of my journey as well. Blessings!


  2. Ma sha Allah.
    Well written .
    It made me sinked to every word you have wrote.
    Every lesson you write on this blog is a lesson to all.
    Thank you very much to share your expirience with all of us. 🙂 i am much appreciated to read your blog.

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