I land, I run for the exit to avoid the hustle and bustle of the hustlers and “bustlers”, I get caught up in the jam, I scramble, I am out but not clear. I get into a taxi and I think to myself “That was exhausting, that was unfair, that was unnecessary”. As quick as those thoughts had arisen did they fall in surrender to the emergence of a mild, but existent, smile of content. My feet tingle and my soul vibrates, both overriding my mind and saying “You are here, and these are the lessons, quit being so defiant. Listen, learn and see, but most of all, don’t ignore your instincts”.
I am in an unfamiliar state of being, I am in an undesirable state of being. In my state of discomfort and confusion I try to observe and analyse the individual I have become, but all I get are feelings of haziness, impatience and frustration. Deep breaths… Inhale, exhale and cough, and that’s when I realize how the quality of my surroundings have begun to have an impact on me in such a short span of time. My inner-being whispers kindly and says “We need out, we need lush beautiful green surroundings, we need to reconnect. Take us to nature”.
I don’t worry about the feeling of discomfort that I am experiencing, I smile at it compassionately and learn to not judge it, because it too will pass. The transient state of equanimous flow has shied away and in its place the sensation of disconnectedness has taken over temporarily.
Excited, thrilled and pleased, I make my way through the alleyway and into the mountains. I am happy, I am transient, I am alive.
“You didn’t come into this world. You came out of it, like a wave from the ocean. You are not a stranger here.” – Alan Watts